I don't want be a cloistered pearl
I see so much beauty in the open world
I've felt only chafed and stunted in these shoes
always thought that it was just the strain of youth
and I feel so fond of who I wanted to be
but I feel so rested now finally, you see
I can't go back I can't go back underwater
but after 20 years of grinding
the way my life flashed - it's blinding
I have compromised so many times and now I'm lost alone at sea
I can't breathe
and I feel so ashamed of who I learned I could be
I failed every moral test my life threw at me
I can't go back I can't go back underwater
There are endless roads that I can see
How can I choose when all I see are possibilities
The safe road still washed out
And now I'm left without
Any of the tools I used to pick my way through those trees
and I feel so afraid of who I might someday see
but I know the path that I was on ceased to be
I can't go back that old safe path is underwater
I feel so fond of who I know I could be
I can't turn away from the life in front of me
I can't go back I can't go back underwater